Question?

This Question seems to come up a lot in my thoughts.

'If only YOU were able to make one person happy beyond their imagination, would you fulfill their wish?'

There's so many little things people could do for me, that would make me happy. It's just a matter of them being willing enough to do it.

I mean, if you were to ask me the same question, I'd do anything in my power to fulfill someones wish, but there's limits to it, obviously.

I wish more people would think like me.

First day of college.

Today was my first day of college, and well it wasn't all that great. I mean, yeah, the whole idea of starting college is pretty cool, but I wasn't bouncing off the walls.

I'm afraid that the people in my Video 1 class will end up to be a bunch of douche bags with no real passion for the world of cinema and video.

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News on the crush? None. Except for the fact that my best friend's telling me not to waste my time. But I just can't help it. I can't just pass something as good as this off so easily. I haven't felt this way since the last Asshole. I want to see him, see how it is between us. I've only just started this, I can't jump to conclusions and give up without testing the water, you know?

Ugh sorry best friend, this is the one time I can't take your word for it.
And if I get hurt, then I can blame myself.

Mood: Shitty.



PS: I hate how i keep checking if he's online, and even if he is, I don't have the guts to speak to him. -_-

Don't mind me, I'm just rambling.

So, alot of weird shit went down today.

One, my ex sent me a voice clip of him singing (OH, hai :3, if you see this) >_> Last time I checked, we were at each others throats.

Anyways, on a second note, I realized I just might have some competition going on.
Ah yes, I believe I'm starting to crush. I'm looking at it as a healthy choice. I can't go on being miserable about the last asshole :). It won't be easy, but at least I'm heading in the right direction, unfortunately I could still see King Asshole in the horizon.
Crushes are entertaining as they are childish. I'm 17 going on 18 in couple of months and I'm still looking for 7th grade crushes.
See, when you have no life like I, you try to find something to keep you busy with your days. I think crushes are perfect. You wake up motivated to be able to talk to them, keeps you at the edge of your seat during conversations, and the littlest things make you happy, putting me in an overall good mood.
I was not aware that I would have competition with this specific one though, but now that I realized I do, i gotta get my shit together and step up to the plate and give it my best shot. What do i got to lose?
Okay , well I've got lots to lose. But whatever.

Also, to be promiscuous or to not be promiscuous, that is the question. C'mon, as wrong as it may be , it is tempting to go off and do whatever the hell you want, with whoever the hell you want. No one could stop you, other than parents of course, but that issue has been long forgotten the day we entered the rebellious teenage hood. I mean, almost everyone knows me as someone with barely any regrets and an open mind. Everything is an experience, so why not experiment. For all we know, we could die tomorrow without experiencing the things we wanted to most in life. I mean, yeah, obviously some things are unattainable at 17, but, you get the point.

Golly, I've written alot. I don't know what struck me tonight, I guess I had to get some things off my chest.

So basically, Current Mood: Bewildered, Competitive & Undecided.

Cheers,


- Kat.